friends!

I have never been so happy that my friends hugged before. For about a year now I have been torn between my 2 best friends. They both felt betrayed by each other. And I of course did not pick a side because I didn't want to lose them as a friend.  It was so difficult to do but I had to. I loved both of them. Its always said that time heals everything. I think that in this situation that was exactly what they needed.  I saw my friends hug and talk this weekend for the first time in a year. There was no drama. Seeing 2 of the most important people in my life (besides my family) talk again made my week. I have been waiting for this to happen for a long time and I cant even explain to people how happy I am!!!! hopefully this happiness continues. 

I am going through a GREAT time in my life because of the people i surround myself with. 

THANK ALL OF YOU!

:):):):):) 

HENDRIX

THIS WEEKEND WAS AMAZING!!!  I love going down to hendrix. It is such an awesome school. I love the atmosphere. I love the people. I love the partying. haha But the people were so much fun and they care about you too. I was really sick friday and all of them were making sure I was getting better and stuff. Yes my friends would do that here too but I barely know some of them and they treated me like i have known them since kindergarden. 

Friday We went to front street and I took a bunch of cold medicine before I drank. It was probably not the smartest thing to do.  I was really out of it. I didnt know what was going on around me. From there we went to martin for the Shamroast.  It was alright. but I think I was too out of it to have fun.  So we went back to the room and I decided to take some more medicine. Smart right? no. I took 2 more benadryl. Oh well. 

Saturday was sooo fun.  We went to front street again. We played drinking games and watched DUKE BEAT TEXAS! haha that was funny cause a lot of the people there were from texas. But thats another story.  I got really drunk over there and then we went to this place called the white house. Its just a house you can rent and there was a "naked party" going on. There were a lot of gay and lesbians.  Lots of thongs from both men and women.  And everyone had bra's with condom stuck in them haha. It was so much fun. Then we went to Martin again and had story time with some awesome people. over all it was a great weekend. I had fun and met awesome people once again. I meet GREAT people every time I go down there. I want to go there so bad but I dont know if I can. I am seriously thinking about it my junior year and senior year. If I do teaching. If not.. I will go down there all the time and just be a regular party goer on the weekends!! i LOVE HENDRIX!!!!

HENDRIX!!

I am finally here!! I got here wednesday night/thursday morning at about 345.  It was a rough train ride. I was right by the stairs and the bathroom was below me. It kind of smelled. haha but It wasnt bad. Then I started to get sick. I had a runny nose and I was having trouble breathing. I took my allergy medicine to see if that would help. It helped with my runny nose but I still couldnt breath very well. So i just sat there reading my book. I finally got here where sarah and tristan were there to pick me up. We had about a half hour drive to HENDRIX! We finally got in around 430 in the morning. I felt bad because they had 8am classes! but we just went to bed. The next morning I woke up really sick. I think its just my allergies thats making me sick. My throat felt so raw like I had swallowed a knife and it scratched my throat on the way down. I took some medicine and tried to sleep through it. It felt like my throat was closed up. But it finally got better. I am still kind of congested and my throat is still a little scratchy but its better now.  I am so excited for tonight because I am going to hang out with the girls soccer team and going to do a power hour. I may be getting intoxicated. But it all depends on how I feel. If my throat feels really bad I am just going to drink water instead. I am not going to be stupid about being sick. Yes It would be fun to drink but I am more concerned about getting more sick.  Then after the power hour there is a party at Martin. the guys party dorms. Its a Sham roast. IDK about all these names they come up with for themed parties. Its kind of funny. But Cj is here too! So its like a reunion  of all of us. ME and tristan and sarah and Cj.  I dont know what our plan is for saturday but Im sure whatever we do is going to be fun! I just love being down here with all these wonderful people. TRISTAN AND SARAH  of course. then others like tristans roommate EMILY and one of the nicest people ever KATIE GATES! I go home sunday which is okay cause I miss my dogs and my family already! but thats okay I will see them soon enough! oh and thanks emily for letting me use your computer!! haha 

LOVE YOU GUYS!!

car accidents

I have been in a total of 6 now car accidents. I was only driving in 3 of them but still that is a lot of accidents. 

1. I hit coles mailbox the first weekend I ever drove...SORRY

2. I rear ended some bitch, yes she was a bitch about it, on my way to get school pictures at orientation junior year. that pic was real attractive.

3 tristan sam and I were driving in kirkwood it was raining and tristans car was terrible. she rear ended someone.

4. I was again with tristan and sam, following lauren and tristan was not paying attention and hit lauren, she was stopped and we were going id say like 40ish maybe a little more little less. that one hurt real bad

5. I had just gotten my new car and was on my way to take my lab test.. an old lady with cancer didnt see me and T-boned me. my whole driver side was totaled. my car should have been totaled but thank goodness it wasnt and they fixed it. it cost total about 9000 dollars. more than the car is worth...

6. last night.. tristan and i were leaving to go to a certain someones house. and we were backing out of her driveway. all of a sudden..BooM! she backed into my car. the fender is bent and the light is kind of pushed in. its kind of out of line. but nothing too severe. 

I really dont mind all the accidents. i have never been hurt in one. and its only cars. i can get a new one of those. it just makes me a more safe driver cause i have been in so many accidents that could have turned out really bad. I love tristan even though everytime we are in a car something bad happens! haha 

I feel like ive been in 7 accidents but I cant remember another one so if i think of it i will add!

AND NOW I KNOW MY 7TH ACCIDENT!

well its really  not an accident.. Sophomore and I drove to school and I was in class when they paged me to the office. My car had been hit while it was in the parking lot. a guy came in late and went around a turn too fast and he slid into another car and then that car hit mine. It almost totaled the car. it didnt but the back was really messed up. and to top it off my parents were out of town so I had to deal with  it on my own.. I was a little young. It was my first accident!

SPRING BREAK!!

I got all my papers done!! i did a bunch while I was at work yesterday one this morning before I had class. I am done with my test and all I have to do now is sit in class for 3 hours waiting for it to be over so I can relax! I didnt really study for this test at all. I dont think I did that bad though. I took psychology before and that helps a lot knowing that I have had history in this stuff before. But I am just so ready for this day to be over. I am going to go up to soccer master and apply for a job with my friend michelle! I hope I can get that because that would be so much fun! THen I have soccer and then me and tristan might go out for her birthday. But Im not sure what we are doing. I also am excited because so many people are coming home this weekend! tristan and katie gates are going to be here! and then so is lauren and anthony! and just all of my friends are back so hopefully I get to see everyone! And then Wednesday I leave for ARKANSAS!! I am so excited to go down there! It is going to be a blast I think! But I will probably write tomorrow too when I find out if I got the head guard job or not!! wish me luck:)

babbling again! ha

So far my plan to not procrastinate has not worked at all!  I still have 3 papers to write and one more test to study for. I knew this was not going to happen. I am planning on writing one of my papers tonight and the other 2 at work tomorrow morning. I am there from 5am to 12.  So I think I can do it. I actually like writing papers there. It has so many less distractions there. I am so bored there I want to do something. It is a great place to do homework. I just have so much to do. I love writing my english papers there. Because It only takes me like an hour or so and that is how long my break is. I will write my english paper on some advertisement. I dont really know what I am suppose to be writing. So I will have to look at that tonight because I dont have internet at work! its kind of annoying! 

ON another subject kind of the same I am so scared about friday!! the managers are making their decisions on who is going to be head guard! I applied along with like 8 other people. I dont know if I will get it but I hope I will. I have experience because I work the morning shifts and I basically run the place. I will have to see what they say. I am only a 3rd year guard and most of the people that applied are 4th year! I still think I have a good chance! but I am just so nervous to find out! when all my stress of midterms is over, I will be extremely excited!! or not happy I still have a life guarding job.  Either way I will still love working in either position I get!

babbling about everything!

this week is a very stressful week! I just cant wait for it to be over and its just monday!! its midterm week. I only have 2 tests, but I have 3 papers to write still. I have till thursday but thats still not a lot of time to study for a test and write 3 papers. I have a schedule down but I dont know how well I will stick to it. I am not the best when it comes to time management. I LOVE to procrastinate. My scheadule is to do my sociology paper tonight so It can help me study for my test I have tomorrow. And then tomorrow after classes I am going to write my politics paper That leaves wednesday while I am at work at 5am I will write my english paper, and then when I get home I can study all night for my psychology test that I have on thursday! I kind of feel bad that I have so much to do this week because It is tristan's spring break and she is sitting at home. I wish I could hang out with her but I cant blow off all this school stuff I have to do. Her birthday is thursday.  So I will for sure hang out with her that night. But I dont know about any other time. I am done with everything on thursday. and hopefully I can spend time wiht her this weekend. but if not, I think she will understand. Also I am going down there to hendrix next week so I am pretty excited about that. All I have to do is get through this week and all my stress is lifted off my shoulders. MIDTERM SUCK!! but its only a little stress in my wonderful life! I can handle it!! 

HAPPY

This semester has been soo much better than last semester.  It is a world of difference from how I feel to Everything I do. I was depressed ALL of last semester. I didnt want to go out. I wanted to quit soccer, school and basically life. I was so lonely and I didnt want to do anything with my life. I almost blame all of that on the atmosphere I put myself in. I was being treated like crap so I thought I was worthless and treated myself like crap too. I was failing 3 of my 4 classes at one point, I was crying on my way to soccer because I wanted to quit so bad. It was just terrible. Herb was a bad decision. He was using me. I dont understand why I let it get so bad. If it werent for my friends making me realize how rude and just terrible he was treating me, I would still be stuck in that mess. I dont blame him, but I do. I was letting him get to me. I was letting him treat me like crap and walk all over me. I let him get away with it because he was all I had. I didnt want to make friends because I didnt have to. I had him. I realize how stupid that was. I realize NOW how much happier I am. I reconnected with my friends, realized what was wrong in my life. I just cant even tell you how much happier I am in my life with out him. Yes, there was a lot of other stuff going on in my life, Soccer was driving me crazy. I HATED the girls because Me and maybe 4 other girls cared about the team. But everytime I wanted to talk to Herb about it, he would shut me down. He just didnt care about me.  I owe all of my happiness right now to my MOM and my friends. They helped me through the depression and the hard times of digging myself out of that hole I put myself in. I cant express my thankfulness to those people. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! 

colors and friends

Green i a my favorite color. I love how bright and amazing it is. I like the darker color or the bright lime green like this. All of them are pretty to me. I also like blue. This color blue is so pretty it reminds me of the ocean. and I love the ocean. I love beaches period. Cause I love warm weather I cant stand this cold weather I cant wait till summer starts so I can get tan, not be cold and start working way more and get more money! 

my third favorite color is orange! It is also Tristans favorite color! its so bright and vibrant and it is just awesome. It was so cool at prom, Tristan wore Orange and I was her date and wore Bright green! It was soo sweet. And when we met up with Sarah she was wearing a kind of blue silver and Lauren was wearing a Bright yellow! 

That is my next color in my favorites. Our pictures looked soo cool! I miss us four hanging out all the time but maybe this summer we can reunite! cause I miss all of you guys a lot!