HAPPY

This semester has been soo much better than last semester.  It is a world of difference from how I feel to Everything I do. I was depressed ALL of last semester. I didnt want to go out. I wanted to quit soccer, school and basically life. I was so lonely and I didnt want to do anything with my life. I almost blame all of that on the atmosphere I put myself in. I was being treated like crap so I thought I was worthless and treated myself like crap too. I was failing 3 of my 4 classes at one point, I was crying on my way to soccer because I wanted to quit so bad. It was just terrible. Herb was a bad decision. He was using me. I dont understand why I let it get so bad. If it werent for my friends making me realize how rude and just terrible he was treating me, I would still be stuck in that mess. I dont blame him, but I do. I was letting him get to me. I was letting him treat me like crap and walk all over me. I let him get away with it because he was all I had. I didnt want to make friends because I didnt have to. I had him. I realize how stupid that was. I realize NOW how much happier I am. I reconnected with my friends, realized what was wrong in my life. I just cant even tell you how much happier I am in my life with out him. Yes, there was a lot of other stuff going on in my life, Soccer was driving me crazy. I HATED the girls because Me and maybe 4 other girls cared about the team. But everytime I wanted to talk to Herb about it, he would shut me down. He just didnt care about me.  I owe all of my happiness right now to my MOM and my friends. They helped me through the depression and the hard times of digging myself out of that hole I put myself in. I cant express my thankfulness to those people. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!